Outside!

Today it was just warm enough to bundle Reese up to venture out to our backyard that she had yet to see! I have a feeling she's going to love it during the summer. Here are a few pics from today!

Super Bowl

Well my dad was a die hard 49ers fan he loved watching them so much! But they as most know have had trying season's BUT he's a dedicated fan and always stayed with them. The first season since he has been gone they make the Super Bowl! I can't help but think how happy he would be, how he would celebrate by watching the game, the jersey and hat he would wear. Regardless if they win he would still feel proud of them. I remember as a little girl laying down with my dad he would help me go to sleep by looking at every teams logo (had a wall border) and ask me what my favorite team was. I would always say the 49ers of course! Well since I married a die hard Cowboys fan I tend to watch them a little more during season and yes I dress in their gear too. They too have VERY have had very trying seasons but even becoming a cowboys fan I will always hold a place in my heart for the 49ers. A couple seasons ago my dad got real sick an admitted to a hospital in Portland..well there was a 49ers game the next day. He some how convinced the doctor to release him for a day so he could drive to Seattle and watch the game. Oh and he did watch the game...from the sideline down by the team and coaches. Here are just a few pics.

Sweet baby...sometimes

So this morning was so sweet, Reese was in the best mood. Ate her toast and apple slices, let me brush her hair without a fit AND brushed her teeth. She then watched tinker bell and played with her Legos while Courtney and I chatted. She also watched the goofy movie and at the end of it always likes me to dance with her to the music. She was just in a sweet mood today :) Reese also loves our dog Bentley too, they are best buds and he is so good with her too!

Dallas on the other hand his cranky...I think he is starting to teeth which is tough on a little one.

We got Netflix and Hulu too which is pretty good so far!

Pics

A few random pics...me playing with the iPad mini and down 2 more lbs!

Warm weather?

I have decided it would just be much eaiser with warmer weather. Our new house has a huge backyard and a park literally houses down, but its too cold to take the kids out. Same with the dogs, also Reese's bday party would be much more fun outside rather than cooped up! I can't wait for bbq's,  little kid pools, watching the dust devil fireworks from our back yard :), summer dresses and cold beer every now and then. Come on warmer weather already!! Reese's bday is coming up, i will probably make and invites on facebook and send some out to those who do not have fb..kinda just feel it's easier that way and people can't lose it lol.  Can't believe my lil girl will be 2, she's growing up way too fast. Which reminds me last night Jason and I got the kids to bed and were relaxing watching TV when someone knocked on the door.   Jason got it, and it was 3 younger girls from across the street. they had made us this awesome little bag of treats to welcome us to the neighborhood! It was so nice, im thinking they saw Reese and saw a babysitting opportunity haha..they seemed sweet so it would be nice to get to know them.  We thought they were like 14 but we know one is at least 16. Jason saw her pull a little car out of the drive way and kill it ha. We have gotten pretty far on decorating but still have our room left. After Jason's aunt came over and asked for idea's she's going to help me do our room...after all she does have her own interior design business!  We pretty much stayed home this weekend and worked around the house, and when we weren't doing anything like that it was nice to just relax we are so tired!

Quiet time...for now!

So kid's are in bed and hubby is passed out and even the dogLs seem really tired! I am enjoying the quiet time :) Today was a pretty good day, my mom returned baby D to us and he got to play with a new toy its the kind where they can eventually jump in it but he isn't quiet ready yet.  I have been so busy I canLt wait to just unwinde a little. Super bowl is next weekend, and the 49ers were my dad's team.  My sister think's maybe they got a little help this year :) and I think she may be right.  My dad would be so stoked for the game.  I invited my mom up to come watch and have a little snack party too.  Reese has had a great time getting to know the new house. She likes her new room, but also likes Dallas's room too!

Moved in.

so yesterday we moved in to our new house and it was such a long busy day. First we couldnt get the lock off our storage unit so we had to break it and the process took a couple hourse so we got real behind but it all worked out in the end! We got a lot put away yesterday but our friend Courtney came over and bought us pizza to celebrate it was nice! Dallas stayed the night with my mom, but Reese seems to love her new room.  It is kind of bitter sweet being here..but i miss my mom and of course my dad!

Thank GOD

Tomorrow is the day we move, because I HATE it! Dallas won't let me put him down, Reese unpacks the boxes! haha it's the best of times and worst!  We pick up our budget truck at 9am tomorrow, baby D will be staying the night in Hermiston with my mom so she can spend some nice time with him and we can get stuff done as well.  Moving in our house is crazy when we have stuff here there everywhere! I am still a little sad about it :( but also happy.  On another note however, I lost 3 pounds this week! YES!  Jason and I have to make a trip up to the house tonight to pick up keys and go by Costco as well so we shall be very busy people for the next 2 days!

Baby D

This week Dallas turned 4 months old, and yesterday he rolled over from his back to his stomach! I will have to look in Reese's baby book but I think this is much sooner than Reese rolled over.  He is such a happy baby, almost every time I look at him he smile's.  He also is such a little talker, which is no surprise as Reese is a chatter box.  I know everyone says different of who they think he looks like, and yes he does make A LOT of the same face expressions has Jason. BUT if you look at one of my baby pictures, Dallas actually looks a lot more like his mama and his papa.  I look a lot like my dad so it makes sense.  Almost everyone says I look just like my dad :)

Our packing and organizing is coming along nicely and I just can't wait for it to be all moved and situated too.  At first I wasn't sure if I was making any progress, I would pack a box later to find Reese had opened it and unpacked it lol.  I figure it will be pretty stressful moving and such, so I am going to make my sister, Courtney and I pedicure appointments for next week on their day's off.  I am in much need of that.

J&J

So I must say I see a lot of couples/married couples who have children totally lose their "us" time with their significant other and I mean it's totally understandable because duh you have like no time and it's so hard with children! And even we fell into that little rut for a while until we decided NO!  So anyways, typically we make "us" time whenever we can squeeze it in..nap time's, date nights and bed time of course :) Well this week has just been so hard because I am so busy with moving and Jason has a real busy week at work because he is taking Friday off to move.  I may not seem like it but I am such a sap at times.  I want my husband to myself and that's it..attention yes please! I know it will be easier once we are moved and settled so we have decided to make a little date night in on Saturday after we are moved and the kid's go to bed :) last time we did this Jason made seafood! But we already decided since we are both on diet's we want bacon cheeseburgers and homemade mac n cheese. Haha can't wait!

On a different topic, I have been so wanting to go wine tasting and I am going to need some people to go with because Jason does not like wine.  I will make  my sister and mom go of course but who else is in?  Also Reese's 2nd birthday party is Feb 23rd, we will send out invites or make an event on Facebook but I have some work to do on that. Cake is ordered of course but need to get going on other stuff!!!

Monday funday??!

Monday's are usually not the best day of the week for my little family.  It means dad goes back to work and we are probably a little tired from the weekend anyways.  It's so nice having help with the kids on the weekends that when Monday rolls around I have to get used to doing it all myself again.  We are moving Friday and we have things here at my mom's house, and also in a storage unit AND at Jason's dad's garage.  So yes we have some stuff to do I would say.  It is hard though because I can't pack certain things until the morning of as the kids will need it or Jason will need it.

Also it has been SO very cold it looks like it might snow, really hoping that doesn't happen. 

TB

When people ask me if it's "getting any easier" with the loss of my dad I really don't know!  In a way I want to say yes, but then also it's a NO because there is like this huge build up because I think...has it really been that long since I heard his voice? Saw his face?  I think time makes it easier and then harder too.  For every two steps I take forward..I eventually take one back type of thing.  There really is not many people I have talked to about how I am really doing.  Of course I can't stop life, it keeps coming every new day.  I feel like there are a few people I want to talk to, and need to about it, and hopefully will soon.  When I think of my dad, alot of the time's I close my eye's and there is this one exact face he always made that is the same face I see every time I close my eye's.  I will try and post that pic on here sometime.  I am going to talk to my hubby soon, because I really want like half a day to remember my dad.  I want to go and do something we did together...eat at a favorite place of his or ours.  Maybe even visit a place he loved to go, him and my mom did so many things together and he would always say "we gotta go Jess" but some of those we never made it to :(

My dad was everything to me, he was amazing.  They say in life you must accept people for who they are, everyone has flaws.  Well I now believe that, and I know he did that for at least all his kids.  Life isn't the same and most the time I think what would dad do?  I miss being young and traveling for softball with him.  As annoying as I thought he was at the time (if you ever traveled with my dad you would know) I now laugh at everything.  My dad gave me the best gift before he passed. Memories!  I get now why we did all these things that at the time, I was either tired from softball and just didn't understand what he was doing or thought he was being funny. 

Even with happy moments that have happened or yet to come.. I can see every family member is happy and then you know that the happy moment brings that little sadness of dad not being here.  He loved family events, I wish we could have been better for him and did more.  I wish he could of met my son, he loved his grandchildren so much.

As it's almost been that 1 year mark of his death...if people really want to know how I am doing?  I am just as devastated and sad as the moment I saw him take his last breath.  I cry behind a closed door, almost everything reminds me of him.  I still feel as if he's on a trip and will be home eventually.  I can't believe I am only 25 and have to spend the rest of my life without him here, it's a long time.  I have a family and 2 kids who I put a face on for because they deserve it, and under it all I know my dad would want me to make the most of the situation.  I am sad he won't be a part of kids life, I really feel like he would of made their lives better in some way.  I am a changed person I believe. Just not the same.  I don't take people's BS anymore.  I have learned to appreciate life more and the one's who treat me good.  I tend to have more energy at time's, life can be pretty short and you never know when it's your time to go.  I wish I could of been the person I am now...when my dad was still here. 

I miss him... always will...he took a piece of my heart with him that's for sure.

Can't have it all

So dieting and working out his hard enough in a busy life with family and friends and jobs, but having kids can throw another wrench in there.  Jason and I both usually work out regularly it since being in hermiston we haven't.  Yes I have lost all my weight and healthy, but we both haven't been able to get back with it.  With our busy lives we just can't have everything, but we are planning to join a gym close enough to our house to make it easier. We decided eating healthy and working out is going to be our one thing for right now we are focusing on, besides our home life first :)

Today we are heading to a friend's daughters birthday party which should be fun for Reese! We planned to stay up and watch movies last night, but lights were out at 10:30pm haha. We got to sleep in a little at least. Maybe tonight?!

Don't like em..

I really don't like fake people.  In so many ways, I just don't understand it and so wish people could just bring it down a notch and as my dad would say "lets call a spade, a SPADE!" ha anyways..that's all for that!

almost...

A few day's ago I reached my weight loss goal and I have lost like 71 lbs or something like that, I'm not good at math. Since reaching my goal I actually figure why not try and lose that extra 10lbs so I can be at a weight that ultimately want to be at anyways?!  So I am on to a new goal, which I think it's a good thing to keep making goals so I don't get satisfied or worse gain back weight. I am happy with what I way but need to be a little more patient with other things, such as my tummy.  Dallas is ONLY 4 months old and I need to remember that and hopefully it will tighten back up :) .  Any mama would know what I am talking about..especially anyone who had 2 csections.  I know I will never be wearing a bikini again no, but it's nice to look good in clothes and dresses :)

Oh and I must say Reese behaved so much better and Grandpa Fitch's for dinner tonight!  The kid won't eat, but she behaved lol.  Through out the day she snacks on mostly healthy stuff like whole grain crackers, fruit and she loves chicken nuggets of course.  I am so thankful she loves fruit, anything fruit she will pretty much mow down on.  Tomorrow is Friday, and normally Jason would be off this Friday so 3 day weekend but NOPE not this weekend he has to work.  Reese loves the weekends with Jason is home we just need the weather to warm up.  I must say trying to entertain a almost 2 year old inside is HARD.  So come on warm weather!!

the things they don't tell you about becoming a parent

I am really glad that I have cute kids, because they can drive me crazy!  When you think of what becoming a parent means prior to actually becoming one..I thought sleepless nights, puking, crying, poop, social life over, sex life over and much more blah blah but you get a wonderful thing out of it! And most books seem to point to all those things as well. Well I am what I would say a dif type of mama but I am here to say for ME I have discovered that those things are the furthest from your mind when being a dedicated parent.  Yes I am sometimes sleepless and yes I deal with poop and puke at times, but there are much more!  Even with my kids being on their worst days, just one smile or hug can make it all so worth it! The books don't tell you even when you have a break from your kids you still think of them or worry or worse the guilt of leaving them. I remember in November Jason and I took a trip to Vegas, leaving the kids behind with my sister and mom.  You know your a parent when everything reminds you of your kids, you walk into a store and go directly to not something for yourself, but to toys or something that reminds you of your kids.  I can't help but worry will my kids be teased in school at some point??! That will be sooo hard to deal with, kids can be so very mean.  Will my kids be athletic or play sports like I hope??  As much as I want that, I would be happy if Reese turned out to be a math geek winning competitions and stuff :) I guess being a good parents is just wanting your kids to be happy no matter what they choose?! 

I think of this stuff all the time, being a good parent is HARD! It's the hardest of times and the best time's all in one.  Reese is almost 2 and Dallas just 4 months, I have a feeling I have a long road ahead of me but so worth it :)

Grandpa's bday dinner

I spent over 3 hours at the doctor today for my shoulder and I have to say I actually did like the new doctor I am seeing, but not the outcome.  So to some up a lot of problems with it,  I have a torn Labrum and a fractured collar bone with fragments that have to be removed.  Doing and MRI next week to check what else will need to be fixed during surgery.  It will be a 6 week recovery and braced to "try" and heal the bone but not for sure. Pain meds and stuff until MRI next week.  Oh and I got a cortizone injection too. 

So by the time I got done at the doctor it was time to take grandpa Fitch out for the pizza dinner we had planned for him so Jason met us at my sister and we picked up the kids and headed to dinner.  YAY pizza and salad bar..NOT. OK the food was decent but little miss Reese decided otherwise. She was up down up down..not wanting to eat just a cranky cranky baby.  So after the last fit Jason had to escort her little butt to the car where they waited.  I felt bad because it was Dain's birthday dinner and even though he understands it still wasn't that pleasant lol.

I am also pretty stoked because I have been getting a lot of idea's for my sister's wedding, and today she got a WAX kit...just like the one's they use at the salon.  So excited! Also got to see my good friend Courtney today, I love catching up with her.  Talked about my dad a little today and it feels pretty natural talking to her about him because they were pretty close too.  I have been missing my dad so much it was great to talk about it a little.

Looking forward to tomorrow because we are having dessert and Jason's dads for his bday and I know Reese will at least behave there!

Come ooonn...

I REALLY want next week to be here. We have been waiting to move into our house for 3 weeks and I really just want it to be done.  The last house we thought was ours was sold right before we moved in so OF course I'm scared something like that will happen again. SO COME ON NEXT WEEK ALREADY!

This morning was not a great start for baby Reese, she is soo cranky.  Also she won't let us watch anything but Mickey Mouse and it's getting a little old.  However she was good for about 5 min while I was able to snap a few pics of her, Dallas and Bentley in bed together watching Mickey. I really hope to get everyone on  a much better schedule when we are all settled including myself.  I really need to take a little more time for myself even if it's just reading or ... ya know THIS :)

Today I have my shoulder appointment to get it checked out AGAIN.  So Reese and Dallas will be going over to their aunt Erin's to play while I go.  I already know the answer surgery, have known that for a few years and YES it's my fault for not doing it when the last injury happened but for now I just need something to help with the pain I suppose.  It's the worst at night and I have to sleep a certain way to try and make it tolerable.  It's also a pretty good reminder of the good old days of playing ball.  Miss that sport and everything it brought into my life.  One day soon I will get back into giving lesson's or even coaching, or heck maybe even a woman's team.

babies and wedding bells!

The last few days I have been doing a lot researching for my sister Erin's wedding, I love weddings but actually get to help with one this time.  We are pretty excited because the actual wedding is a destination wedding in VEGAS! A reception will follow after we all return and that's the fun part is getting idea's and stuff to help with. And THANK goodness I will not be prego and might like decent in a dress this time. I wish I had learned more about weddings and such before my own wedding, there is so much I would have done different but not to say I didn't love my wedding. Also on the other hand I have a close friend who is PREGO and I am so excited once again that I will actually get to be a part of it and it's not my own :) both events should be fun leading up to.

Since I have been doing so much idea searching Reese thinks that she needs to pull the kitchen chair from table and place it by the counter, which she normally does but now she gets a pen and draws.  It keeps her busy so I don't mind, except yesterday when she spilt a whole cup of coffee (cold thank god) on my mom's floor.  Luckily I got it all out of the carpet. Baby Dallas on the other hand likes to be held the whole time. In fact, he has started to get pretty clingy to his mama.  I don't mind because I get the whole "daddy's girl'  and "mama's boy" thing. Lately if someone else is even holding him he's searching the room with his eye's for me.  I like it, just need to strap him to me more so I can get things done.

Lots of events coming up and I also have started looking up idea's for Reese's birthday.  Her birthday has made me a little sad because I can't believe the time that has passed since she was born...our first day's with her and everything..never will we get that back. Anyways it's making me a little weepy over it I know, sure it's normal??!

The first of many..

Through out the week I typically check into about three different blogs, I love following them and I think it's an awesome way to communicate. Since moving back from Portland to Hermiston and then now moving BACK to tri-cities I have had a lot of family say "we will never see you". Well I have a couple dif views on that, 1. Pasco- To our house 36 min drive from Hermiston. 2. We will visit, but be nice and return the favor or it's not going to last :) 3. For the family/friends that we don't get to or can't visit isn't this a cool way of keeping up with our little family and growing babies??!! YES. And I love blogging so it works out.

MOVING! That's what is on this little families agenda for the next 10 days. I hate the anticipation of it and the process all together. With Jason's job we have moved ALOT and it never gets easier, in fact worse with kids. Last move (to Portland) Reese cried and would only allow Jason to rock her to sleep or she just wouldn't. So I am praying that doesn't go on again, however I know Reese is so used to waking up to my mom she will probably look for her. Also since moving alot we have had many different sizes and types of housing.  Our last (apartment) was small so we actually downsized on everything, no we didn't keep it just got rid of it! So now we have been hurrying and trying to buy some of the big things that will fit into the moving truck so we won't have to later move it with no help. As much as we are looking forward to moving, I also am a little sad we won't be just a few min from SOME family. lol I know seems mean but really. But I am really going to look at the positive side..it's a GOOD thing and when we do see family and friends from Hermiston it will make it that much better. RIGHT? Hope so!