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Random pics over the last few days

Reese's 2nd birthday party

This last Saturday was Reese's 2nd birthday party, we had it at Shakey's and game parlor which turned out really cool. My sister and I got there a little early to decorate, after picking up the balloons and cake delivery we went. We had a cute little outfit made by a local lady, it was a Mickey Mouse clubhouse shirt and matching skirt. A few people couldn't come be causes sickness but overall a good turn out. Most the time everyone was up playing games, they gave all their tickets to Jason to get a prize for Reese when all done. Boy did we have alot when said and done over 2000 to be exact. Lol she got a couple cool prizes. The food turned out great there, we ordered a party package. It had 6 pizza's, drinks and 3 or 4 platters of chicken and these amazing Jo Jo potato wedges with ranch. This place was so much better than chucky cheese. We will def be going there more often :). I really thank all of our family and friends, I didn't take a picture of all the presents the picture I took was just from Jason and I lol but there were soooo many gifts it was crazy. Reese was by that time overwhelmed so I opened most of them. They included almost everything Mickey Mouse, mini mouse, hello kitty and the Lorax. Reese had a good time, everyone took turned playing games or walking around with her. Dallas got held the whole time of course and it was nice because I was running around. Also the cake turned out amazing, so very happy with our new cake lady. So Reese is now 2 and I am happy and sad, but lately she has been so loving even with us being a little stricter. She is listening a little better but mostly if we say stop she's doing better too. We were able to take her to the mall yesterday to get new shoes and she did good. Also now with her being 2 , we are going to start potty training. Every kid is on their own path and our doctor told us how to start and everything too. So we shall see :). Here are some of the pics from the party.

Days gone by..

Today I've been cleaning, bathing the kids and making lists for stuff I need for Reese's party and gifts when for some reason I just stopped sat down an had a pretty weird feeling in my gut. I liked at the date and I don't know why I mean obviously tomorrow is the 22nd Reese's bday. Then I knew why I didn't feel god, this time last year was the very last time I saw my dad alive. It was Reese birthday party we had in hermiston the last time I saw him. The weekend he past away he had planned to come to Portland to visit, but that terrible call from my sister that Friday changed that. I feel selfish by saying why me? So many people go through this, but I can't help it. Why am do I have to live the rest of my life which for a good part of it should still have both my parents around?! Worse....why do my kids never get the chance to know their grandfather? It's an overwhelming feeling knowing how much has already happened without him here..and worse how much will happen without him here. I thought to myself why?? I feel for all my family members an my mom. And the worse part of losing my dad?? If he had better medical attention rather an Good Shepard Medical sit him on a bed for house upon hours with no medical attention when he had clear signs of an infection, and there is a hospital protocol to follow with the symptoms he had. They didn't, and once at kadlec the infection was gone the next morning but it was too late. Time was a precious matter for the sake of life and death. That's what makes things like this worse. That little thought what if? In my eyes after reviewing medical records and researching his diagnosis..yes he could be here with us now. These things aren't supposed to happen right? I mean hospitals are professional and there for help right? Wrong in this case at least... I mean a real hospitals ambulance doesn't get lost during a transport? Even when the EMT was doing the best he could to help, the driver spends time going down back streets because she's lost having to make an emergency stop at another hospital other than the one they are supposed to go to. So many disturbing things happened with that medical facility. Apparently they also allow their staff to leak medical record information?! Pretty sure that's a law. All this BS makes losing a loved one so much worse its sickening, leaving our poor family feeling guilt for even taking him there. No I don't know the outcome of what would of happened if he had the proper medical attention from the very second he went there, but who likes to have to wonder for the rest of their lives?! If you love your family..please don't ever take them there for a serious matter.

Besides this wondering thought that fills my head constantly, I have ran out of things to say how I am feeling. It's all an understatement anyways...I wish I could have seen him that night in the hospital before tragedy struck. But if Reese's birthday has to be my last memory of him in person, then I am happy with that. He loved her so much, and she loved his attention it was a great party. I remember exactly what my dad told me that day about Reese at the party. He said " Wow, can you imagine how spoiled she's going to be? Look how many people are here, I've never seen this at a babies party. She's going to be so special." He took some pictures of her while she ate her first slice of cake, I will have to find them they are on my mom a camera I believe.

Here are a few pics of our sweet baby Reese and of my dad too. I wish he was here to attend her party this year.

Monday?

Today feels so much like a Monday it's crazy, I guess it's because Jason had Monday off. Yesterday we spent the day watching relaxing then went to toys RUS, oh and met with Emily our new sitter for the kids. She's really nice and connected by family friends so she will be a good date night sitter. We are going to Bonefish Thursday with a couple of friends then going birthday shopping for Reese after. Should be fun! We have lived up here almost a month now so we figure the kids are pretty settled in, time to start venturing out :). I have also been wanting to go wine tasting real bad, so I'm going to try and put a day together so my mom and sitter can go with me :). The kids have been pretty good lately, we are starting the potty training process with Reese...so far she doesn't really like it.

We are going down to Erin's bday party Friday, also going to stop by my moms. Her goat had triplets and Reese would love to see the babies in sure!

Dallas is most likely our very last baby, so I have of course been taking a ton of pictures. I think we have a little ham on our hands. Every time a stranger or anyone looks at him he starts smiling and or laughing. He is getting so big, I remember when they let me see him for the first time. So skinny, now he's chubby and tall.

Reese will be 2 years old on Friday. I really can't say too much about it, I get so emotional. Reese changed my life so very much. It's been two years since the doctor handed this little baby girl to us. Some how through emotions, laughs, tears, confusion, sadness, and a lot of fun and love we made it to 2 years. I couldn't begin to describe how much I love these kids, words would be an understatement.