Something missing?

So my sister decided to take Reese and Dallas for 2 days on Monday...I was a little surprised because to someone who doesn't have children 2 of them can be a handful. But very happy too because a break for myself could be used :)

I have to say it was very weird not having the kids here, yes I got to clean the house and have it stay clean, slept through the night, went on a date, went shopping with Courtney and lounged for a few minutes! But waking up today I got this familiar feeling...it was as if when Jason and I got our first apartment and I was done with softball and I would wake up and do whatever I wanted! It actually mad me sad. Sad because I know now more than ever I was truly missing something in my life prior to having our children. I woke up this morning missing going into Reese's room and her laying in bed....having her say "hi mom" about 10 times. Then walking into Dallas's room to find a huge smile on his face when he sees me. Mom and dads need breaks and I am thankful we got ours this week! But gosh I love my kids, they drive me crazy at times but a good parent knows that's normal! They are my whole world! I got to spend some alone time with my husband, and I am glad :) I love him so much and he misses the kids so much too. I found myself a wonderful guy, and we have grown and learned together. He is an amazing dad and I am glad I get to wake up and go to bed with him. My heart grew a little more for my kids these last 2 days! So glad they will be home in about an hour.

I also got to think a lot about my dad while the kids were gone. I miss him so much. I was able to start a little area in Jason's man cave for some of his 49ers stuff and just great memory stuff too. I miss having bbqs with him, sitting around just talking. He was so full of life, made the smallest things so exciting. I miss his voice so much, and his knowledge about everything. It's hard...to say the very least. He was my everything.