Heavy heart...

  Wow have we been busy this week! Doctor appointment's, cakes, gym, shopping, bday party!  Its been busy for sure.  And this week I have had a very heavy heart.  Have you ever just cared/loved someone so much??! Not your children or spouse.  So it's hard to see choices and not know outcomes..so I being the way I am just lay my heart out. With the exception of my kids and husband, caring about this person the way I do is hard.  I worry, stress and try to love the best I can.  I have the best intentions but fact of matter I just love this person so much.   They probably might know..but basically is my rock.  The other day I had this thought..what if I didn't have this person around.  Like literally tried to put the pieces where they go if that were actually true.  Well it just tore me up, and really a good reminder to care and love.  Happiness is what I want and believe for everyone.  I also have this heavy weight to make sure people are, it's weird. I tend to stay closed up and not maybe show a lot of it.  But my mind is always ticking. The love I have for this person who has treated me so well is just unconditional.  That's what it is unconditional..really.  I just have been trying to figure out how to show that I suppose.  It's a work in progress...

  I started back at the gym this week.  Its needed for a few different reasons.  I have some inner struggles and it really helps.  Therapy? I guess maybe its kind of like that.  My sweet Dallas has been on my mind a lot.  A lot comes with that and I need to take it in and get it out I guess.  I am excited to see the results combined with my dieting as far as my body too.  I really don't know how I am even fitting it in but I am and glad. 

  Reese starts indoor soccer next weekend! Excited yes!  Jason has been waiting for this moment for the kids to start sports since before they were born.  So of course letting him go overboard with all the cool gear was necessary.  Considering I think it's a little extreme $$ but I allowed.  We will see how it goes.  She's a huge talker and I am kind of worried she might just be trying to talk and play with the kids lol but that's ok!  We attended Candice's daughter Kitana's birthday party yesterday.  It was fun but Dallas did not have such fun at first.  About 10 min before we got to Hermiston he fell asleep in the car.  So we had to wake him and that's just not good for him.  He did like the piñata however. We dropped Slater off at my sisters to hang out with her during.  A fun but fast weekend this was!